I AM ME

!ding! dong! ding! dong! some reality check for us guys... more like an uplifter actually. Beautifully written poem with real good intentions. Love Et!

My Declaration of Self-Esteem

by Virginia Satir

In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me
Everything that comes out of me is authentically me
Because I alone chose it - I own everything about me
My body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions,
Whether they be to others or to myself - I own my fanatasies,
My dreams, my hopes, my fears - I own all my triumphs and
Successes, all my failures and mistakes Because I own all of
Me, I can become intimately acquainted with me - by so doing
I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts - I know
There are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other
Aspects that I do not know - but as long as I am
Friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously
And hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles
And for ways to find out more about me - However I
Look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever
I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically
Me - If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought
And felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is
Unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that
Which I discarded - I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be
Productive to make sense and order out of the world of
People and things outside of me - I own me, and
therefore I can engineer me - I am me and


I AM OKAY

Question is are you okay?? hoping so! =)

Big Kiss,
Eileenie

Coffee: Not Just Addiction, it's a Lifestyle.

If you think about it, coffee really is an addiction during the earlier stages of your "caffeinated" life when all you think of is devouring it. I, myself had gone through that stage. I have had days when I find my self driving to a local Starbucks (most likely where the one i work at.. LOL) and get the strongest coffee I could have and drink it in an instant only to find myself wanting more. And this for the sake of drinking my coffee and have the day over with. This fetish probably also came with amountful sugar Starbucks add to there flavored lattes that's why my body keeps looking for more. It also got me through late night studies, or late night workouts or even through my whole day. But once you pass that "addiction" stage of it, the habit becomes a part of you, a lifestyle. Nowadays, (after almost 4 years of depending on coffee) i don't have that eagerness on wanting coffee like i did before. I just simply find my self grabbing for my favorite mug at home and start brewing me some coffee as part of my daily routine. It instantaneously became a part of my everyday life. I can't differentiate yet between my habits before to what I have become now. All I can really say is that I LOVE COFFEE???? hahahaha

Everytime I drink my cup of coffee though, I cannot get my mind off of thinking its pros and cons. So I did a little research about it which for the most part I already know of.

So here are the pros and cons... that ive heard and read about.
Pros:
+ Antioxidants
+ Good for cancer (specifically ovarian)
+ Controls Asthma
+ Lessens the risk of kidney stones.
+ among others...

Cons:
X Heartburn
X Addiction
X BP
X Ruins Circadian Rhythm
X Dehydration
X Dependence
X Cost????

ahhh.. whatever it is... i still love my coffee. I still maintain my control, although i still believe a coffee a day, shoos eileen's trouble away. =)

Big Kiss,
Eileenie

i WAS JUST iN A HORROR SCENE LAST NiGHT

LOL... but not literally. it somehow just felt like it. so here it goes...

so i was walking around campus at around 6:00pm which is already fairly dark for vegas this time of year. i got out of class and i still saw people walking around. i went to the bathroom for a while to pee pee like i religiously do every hour of my life. LOL. so when i got out of the bathroom, the eerie feeling began. all the people disappeared. i mean theres a few, but not the usual rush on a 6pm. but the thing is i had to go to the bookstore to return my book i purchased earlier (made copies of the book for 5 bucks and returned it right after to get my full 40 dollar refund..hahah smart eh??).

my classroom at that time to the bookstore was about a mile. lol.. exaggerating but you get the gist of it right?? and i was walking, cold, windy.... i felt alone and that someone was following or watching my every move. and the people i saw were the weird students, smoking in the corner, loners, those that dont give a damn about stuff around them. then the lights were fluttering like those effects in the movies, made it more scary. The scardy cat me... ran as fast as i could to somewhere in knew was safe. hahaha.. and get this.. i pulled out my cellphone from my purse and quickly dialed 911 so to get ready. so i got to the bookstore, returned my book, then i had to walk back to the parking lot. as soon as i got out of the bookstore, i saw the usual rush i see for 6pm. like everything went back to normal. what the heck was that? was it somekind of a prank. lol.. it was so surreal. its hard to get the picture of it just by reading this, but you have no idea how scared i was. damn it. next time im buying a pepperspray. hahah..


sigh... the point of this story??? is that..im bored as fuck. lol.

eileenie

Top 10 Countries i Wanna Visit

not in any particular order although bold faced are of much preference.

1. Korea
2. Greece
3. South Africa
4. Ethiopia
5. Spain
6. Australia
7. Thailand
8. Japan
9. Singapore
10. Brazil

....and the list goes on as i will encounter other great news about a new country.

*ahhhh...the freedom of dreaming*

iTS VALEN-TiMES DAY AGAiN!!!

Its that time of the year again.
Time to wear that sexy red dress again.
Time and might be the only time to receive flowers/chocolate.
Time to be in love.
Time to rekindle some sort of relationship.
Time to spend quality moments with someone special.
Time for reservations at fancy restaurant.
Time for dancing under the starry night.
Time for maybe a get together with fellow single friends.
Time for double/group dating.
Time to look blooming.
Time to feel love all over again.


...sigh...

it's as if i forgot all these feelings at once. this year, i might even break my own promise. I'll sure go out... thats IF someone does asks me out.
But on a lighter note, hope everyone has a lovely valentimes.....day.

Loooove it.

Eileenie

SOCiAL STATUS: MY LOVE LiFE.

In a span of a year and a half, i didnt know that i was gonna be shifting from one song to another this quickly.

A little over a year ago I was completely singing my heart out to Natasha Bedingfield's song "SiNGLE". It understood my feelings, its just like a song meant for me and my endeavor in the realm of love. The song goes out like this.....


Single
Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you

I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't

[Chorus:]
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I'm single
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
That's how I wanna be

Ah yeah Uh Huh that's right

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant


...however at this very moment, the mood quickly and surprisingly changed pace. I now find my self singing to yet another NB song called "Soulmate".



Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
how do I find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone


HAHAH... crazyness right??? you tell me! or could it be hormones??

uggh.. i guess i'll patiently wait and figure things out for now. so indecisive and mood swingy me!

Novels i Read During Winter Break

In the span of a month and a half on my winter break for school, i managed to read four beautiful novels.
1.


Once again, a beautiful work from a beautiful author like Nicholas Sparks. A love story that revolves around a couple and choices they had to make to keep the relationship stronger and alive. How love taught them how to value life and protect life. It is such a powerful love story. Yes, a typical one, but Sparks still tends to add edges into his novel to not make it boring.

2.


A lovely written novel from a new comer Marisa De Los Santos. Though its about romance, it is not a romantic novel at all but shows us how true love triumph in midst of uncertainties and bad instances. A connection from total strangers and opposites ends into love made by events and people around them. Expect a movie coming soon about this book.

3.


This book has already been made into a movie. But believe me, like any other novels turned into movies, the books is far better and movies tend to create its own story opposed to what is written. P.S I Love You is once again from a new comer. A very unique story i think. A mixutre of comedy, romance, drama and tragedy. And excitement rolls in your stomach as you read through it.

4.


Another Nicholas Sparks movie. So i obviously love the guy. LOL. The second time i read this book. This story is similar to any kind of dear john stories-war, girlfriends, letter, and break-ups. but there are other elements that added to this novel that made it unique on its own. Its heart warming at first then tears your heart minutes later. A rollercoaster ride of emotion.

well thats its. im really happy ive read that much book during my free times before i go back to school again. *sigh* now im back to those boring, heavy, glossy and expensive books they call school books. lol. but along the way im hoping to reading more books like these or maybe go out of my comfort zone a little and try other genres of novels. hmmm... who knows maybe the next one i'll read is something ive never heard off or read before. for now i'll keep my options open.

big kiss,
eileenie