2007/2008

Okay, being always fashionably late in real life, i might as well carry that trait on in this wonderful blogosphere and try to talk about the coming new year and my thoughts of the past year being already late of a topic as it is.

So i begin by rambling about how the year 2007 treated me. It scared me soo much how i eerily felt 2007 came by sooo quickly. It scared me even more when i heard people yap about the same experience too. I mean wow, i clearly remember what i did january 2007 like it was just yesterday. How i was celebrating 2007 new year and waking up to celebrate christmas already. it felt as if time was moving fast, that i needed to catch up with it or that i needed to savor every moment of it. i dont know, it really bugged me how last year went by so quick
Was it because i didnt have any significant moments that happened this year? or was it the opposite? that i did became so busy this year that i was preoccupied and cared nothing about the world outside of me? yeah i remember having full loads of classes and spending my time at some random place everyday of my life to study and ignored friends calls to hang out and how this was so unusual of me. i remembered spending less and less time at work to the point that ive not been getting my usual income. i remembered random guys ive spent intimate moments/converstations with and also exactly how each affair ended. and other nonsense stuff too. the point is, its not really any different from my past years. so even to these day, im still pondering to my self what made 2007 special to me? right now, i just cant get the gist of it. maybe sooner or later something will pop-up.

But i must move on the what 2008 has in store for me. i expect a lot from this year. mainly a lot of moving on, letting go, setting and breaking free as i embark on my journey outside of home. yes, i intend to move for the sole purpose of reaching my goals and also feeling the independence. This year, i also intend to finding a partner i can have conversations with, i can cuddle with, i can cry to aside from people right now who are in my comfort zones. i want someone new to rely my love on and that will care for me just the same. i deserve this for having sucha lonely 2007. i look forward to travelling more or getting in to roadtrips with random people i love. mainly, i know my life has already been arrange in terms of what i want for my life, my goals and future, but this year, i finally want to put the finishing touches to make it even more secure. in other words, i want to make these goals happen this year. i want to finally decide what i want for my life and my future and make up my mind on it. it is sucha hard decision but i know i can overcome this. hopefully, year 2008 will treat me well. we can only wish and pray for these things, but the real action takes place when we make that first critical step. and that is what im about to do, its just a matter of making the right one. but...

Good riddance to all of us. and God Bless. Have a safe and blessed 2007

hugs and kisses,
Eileenie