SOCiAL STATUS: MY LOVE LiFE.

In a span of a year and a half, i didnt know that i was gonna be shifting from one song to another this quickly.

A little over a year ago I was completely singing my heart out to Natasha Bedingfield's song "SiNGLE". It understood my feelings, its just like a song meant for me and my endeavor in the realm of love. The song goes out like this.....


Single
Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you

I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't

[Chorus:]
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I'm single
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
That's how I wanna be

Ah yeah Uh Huh that's right

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant


...however at this very moment, the mood quickly and surprisingly changed pace. I now find my self singing to yet another NB song called "Soulmate".



Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
how do I find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone


HAHAH... crazyness right??? you tell me! or could it be hormones??

uggh.. i guess i'll patiently wait and figure things out for now. so indecisive and mood swingy me!

Novels i Read During Winter Break

In the span of a month and a half on my winter break for school, i managed to read four beautiful novels.
1.


Once again, a beautiful work from a beautiful author like Nicholas Sparks. A love story that revolves around a couple and choices they had to make to keep the relationship stronger and alive. How love taught them how to value life and protect life. It is such a powerful love story. Yes, a typical one, but Sparks still tends to add edges into his novel to not make it boring.

2.


A lovely written novel from a new comer Marisa De Los Santos. Though its about romance, it is not a romantic novel at all but shows us how true love triumph in midst of uncertainties and bad instances. A connection from total strangers and opposites ends into love made by events and people around them. Expect a movie coming soon about this book.

3.


This book has already been made into a movie. But believe me, like any other novels turned into movies, the books is far better and movies tend to create its own story opposed to what is written. P.S I Love You is once again from a new comer. A very unique story i think. A mixutre of comedy, romance, drama and tragedy. And excitement rolls in your stomach as you read through it.

4.


Another Nicholas Sparks movie. So i obviously love the guy. LOL. The second time i read this book. This story is similar to any kind of dear john stories-war, girlfriends, letter, and break-ups. but there are other elements that added to this novel that made it unique on its own. Its heart warming at first then tears your heart minutes later. A rollercoaster ride of emotion.

well thats its. im really happy ive read that much book during my free times before i go back to school again. *sigh* now im back to those boring, heavy, glossy and expensive books they call school books. lol. but along the way im hoping to reading more books like these or maybe go out of my comfort zone a little and try other genres of novels. hmmm... who knows maybe the next one i'll read is something ive never heard off or read before. for now i'll keep my options open.

big kiss,
eileenie

10 Things That Makes Me Happy..

Here are the list of random things that makes me happy:

1. Feeling that weird tingle up my spine when i hear my fave song on the radio/ipod/laptop.

2. Seeing an almost bird's eye view of las vegas at night.

3. Nightouts/movies/dinner with friends.

4. Reading a good book/novel at starbucks.

5. Friendly conversations.

6. Thrifty shopping.

7. Cuddling.

8. A new set if make up or kits {i.e. brushes, eyeshadows, lipstick, etc.}

9. Babies

10. Coloring books.

Looking Into...

At this early on i am already looking into a lot of stuff and possibilities for my future. I am overly excited about going into the real world, finishing my studies, getting the degrees in need and start teaching. I get chills just thinking about it. I felt like teaching is really meant for me. Its something when you see yourself in it enjoying it, and its another when you just dont find a spark with it. i mean, i already felt and experienced both. My earlier days in college i chosen to go for a field i thought i was gonna be happy with. It was a financially stable kind of profession. I dreaded every second of it though. there was a weird heavy feeling in my heart. Until two semesters ago when i decided that it wasnt for me and went for other possible realms of career i want to pursue. Ive always wanted to be a teacher, ive always liked kids and sharing knowledge with them. So then i moved to elementary education. it was a relief. I see such a huge difference from my personality back then to what i am now. for a change i felt a dagger pulled out of my chest. it is such a lovely feeling. and i couldnt be any happier and excited.

So now, im looking into my future. what/where/when/how should i make this happen. Until recent months ive been looking into teaching abroad. Korea caught my eye the most. For some reason, i could see my self teaching in korea like some kind of premonition. i dont wanna jinx anything but i would like for this to happen for real. right now i am just working hard to get my degree and some experiences and prove to everyone my worth of being a good educator. hope all goes well from here and i couldnt wait any longer. =)

Kamsamnida.

big kiss,
eileenie

2007/2008

Okay, being always fashionably late in real life, i might as well carry that trait on in this wonderful blogosphere and try to talk about the coming new year and my thoughts of the past year being already late of a topic as it is.

So i begin by rambling about how the year 2007 treated me. It scared me soo much how i eerily felt 2007 came by sooo quickly. It scared me even more when i heard people yap about the same experience too. I mean wow, i clearly remember what i did january 2007 like it was just yesterday. How i was celebrating 2007 new year and waking up to celebrate christmas already. it felt as if time was moving fast, that i needed to catch up with it or that i needed to savor every moment of it. i dont know, it really bugged me how last year went by so quick
Was it because i didnt have any significant moments that happened this year? or was it the opposite? that i did became so busy this year that i was preoccupied and cared nothing about the world outside of me? yeah i remember having full loads of classes and spending my time at some random place everyday of my life to study and ignored friends calls to hang out and how this was so unusual of me. i remembered spending less and less time at work to the point that ive not been getting my usual income. i remembered random guys ive spent intimate moments/converstations with and also exactly how each affair ended. and other nonsense stuff too. the point is, its not really any different from my past years. so even to these day, im still pondering to my self what made 2007 special to me? right now, i just cant get the gist of it. maybe sooner or later something will pop-up.

But i must move on the what 2008 has in store for me. i expect a lot from this year. mainly a lot of moving on, letting go, setting and breaking free as i embark on my journey outside of home. yes, i intend to move for the sole purpose of reaching my goals and also feeling the independence. This year, i also intend to finding a partner i can have conversations with, i can cuddle with, i can cry to aside from people right now who are in my comfort zones. i want someone new to rely my love on and that will care for me just the same. i deserve this for having sucha lonely 2007. i look forward to travelling more or getting in to roadtrips with random people i love. mainly, i know my life has already been arrange in terms of what i want for my life, my goals and future, but this year, i finally want to put the finishing touches to make it even more secure. in other words, i want to make these goals happen this year. i want to finally decide what i want for my life and my future and make up my mind on it. it is sucha hard decision but i know i can overcome this. hopefully, year 2008 will treat me well. we can only wish and pray for these things, but the real action takes place when we make that first critical step. and that is what im about to do, its just a matter of making the right one. but...

Good riddance to all of us. and God Bless. Have a safe and blessed 2007

hugs and kisses,
Eileenie

CURIOUS GEORGEs

Here we are taping our selves while watching a video. What that video is...see for yourself and pls dont blame me. lol.. tata



♥ eileenie

MY FiRST "A" ESSAY THiS SEMESTER

I just wanna share my first essay for this semester for my english literature class. I dont mean to brag but it is an "A-" essay and im very proud of it. lol. i justed wanted to share since i havent posted anything in ages. enjoy

TAKE ME HOME

Indeed, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. It is a big world out there that a moment to get to know, love and respect oneself is the first step to make it physically, emotionally and spiritually in this random world. We can compare our own quest of self discovering and fulfillment to Odysseus’ twenty years of journey away from home and loved ones. As we grow up, we experience the true meaning of life and it is not always easy and relaxing. Some parts of life are meant to be difficult and challenging to prepare us in greater tests ahead. In his adventure, Odysseus faced many ups and downs which made the heart of this epic. His story and our own journey and journeys to be begins with a choice: one that is usually difficult to make but is also the only ticket for the way home.
It was a painful decision for Odysseus to agree to lead the war in the city of Troy. He knew the consequences and suffering it will bring forth to his life and his family’s. Knowing it is the only way home to agree and get it over with, he finally decided to join with the mind set that he will succeed and return safely. During his voyages, he endured in a an exhausting trip: fighting in a ten year war, bumping into a giant hostile cyclops, being lost at sea, and held captive by sexual goddesses. He faced these tests with only one goal and that is returning safely home to his loving wife and son. With perseverance and help of some good friends he met along the way, he finally returns back home and meets his families and friends anew. Upon his return to his hometown he receives his real award for this long sojourn. Nothing can beat the feeling of being back home seeing familiar faces, meeting his son for the first time in twenty years, rekindling relationships with his faithful wife and feeling the warmth of good friends around. These are the real reward for a man of honor and it is something money cannot buy. This adventure made Odysseus the man he really is: brave, determined, loving and powerful.
Our own journey, we could say, is synonymous to his. Like Odysseus, we can accomplish the same outcome with the same perseverance and the same attitude he possessed. Our journey also starts with a significant decision and it is just a matter of making the right one. Do we want to take risks and endure painful path to achieve the success we want where everything will turn out okay in the end anyway? Or do we want to play it safe, not taking chances and live a bland life? A wise man like Odysseus would go for taking the risky adventure and face consequences. It is these hardships that makes up a strong-willed, determined and fulfilled human being. Success does not happen over night. One has to work hard for it and even challenge themselves to find the real meaning of their life’s conquest. After the wild adventure is where we find our true peace and serenity which makes us feel safe and at home. It will also make us feel powerful, knowledgeable, compassionate and accomplished.
Odysseus’ long battle away from home gave a deeper meaning to his life and personality. He faced whatever lies ahead of him, good or bad, just to get safely back home. With a knowledge of how harsh the battle he will go through away from home, he still chose to depart. More than benefiting himself, he knew it was going to benefit his beloved countrymen. It was that choice, of going to the war, that gave Odysseus the true essence of the word “success.” Our own journey is identical to his if we also posses the same attitude. We do not know what our future brings. Will it be dreadful or will it be pleasant? The necessary step is for us to determine and to make it happen. In that important step though, is where the decision making comes from. It is this brilliant step that will get us to the right path, make us see the randomness of the world and finally takes us safely home.


The teacher's note says : "not as polished as i would like it to be, but a very well thought out essay."

=) thanks for reading.

Eileenie